This year was hectic so I decided not to make a calendar but on turning the last page of the 2016 Calendar, I thought I would miss it so I sat down and worked hard.
Some friends were really pleased, they too, had thought they would miss it.
It may seem out of date to have a paper calendar but I remember many years ago missing an important appointment and the elderly and wise man I had let down telling me You have a calendar, you write in it and you put it where you take your meals.
I opened a box of eggs and found one with this beautiful feather:
white and a gentle russet colour.
I put it on the window sill in the kitchen
I took a picture of the egg and the feather trying to catch something of the lightness of the feather.
It was leaning against weights which live on the window sill and I thought the small jam jar was nice too.
Looking at the picture, I saw the juxtaposition of the very light and the heavy and thought of moods,
what weighs on the mind and the choice of lightness.
I tried to make the contrast more obvious.
The next day I read an article by Ian Brown in which he quotes Jean Vanier
"If you want to live in hope and not fear, you have to tell the truth and declare your fragility."
It is always difficult to find a title and easy to borrow someone else's words, so I did.
It is a weight, not heavy, just 50gr but I thought about what weighs and what springs again even though it was cut down (the mint) and somehow the mint met with the shadow of the weight. Trying to see something everyday in the humble or otherwise.
Living grows round us like a skin, to shut away the outer desolation
For if we clearly mark the furthest deep, we should be dead long years before the grave
But turning around within the homely shell of worry, discontent and narrow joy, we grow and flourish and rarely see the outside dark that would confound our eyes
Some break the shell
I think that they are those who push their fingers through the brittle walls and make a hole
And through this cruel slit they stare out across the cinders of the world with naked eyes
They look both out and in Knowing themselves and too much else besides